Thanks for the suggestions, here and on social media! It was tough to choose, but I’ve decided to go with Dannydangerously’s suggestion. “Shot in the Heart” by Simonne Darkstar came a close second.
Pain shatters my heart like a grenade.
“Don’t be ridiculous,” I say to the splintered organ.
The fragments pulse and bleed, and I, shell-shocked,
take out my chewing gum, glueing together what burst apart.
“Don’t be ridiculous,” I say again, sticking the oozing mess back in my chest.
On the train it falls out again, through the gaps between my ribs.
I pretend it didn’t happen, ignore the curious glances,
ignore the melodramatic organ lying splayed on the dirty floor.
Pretending to tie my laces I pick it up and slip it into my pocket.
“Don’t be ridiculous,” I hiss.
In the afternoon, between emails and phone calls, I feel it playing up again.
“Don’t be ridiculous," I say once more,
now angry, for I have deadlines,
and the mess on the floor
And the absence of something pumping my blood
Fuck up my schedule.
“You are ridiculous.” I say.
“I’m better off without you.”
And I sweep it under the rug;
quickly, as there’s a knock at the door.
To dispose of later.
And at night, as I lie not sleeping,
My blood frozen in my veins,
I feel a dull phantom pain explode in my chest.